hi!

i'am no longer gonna let what he says determine me. it sucks having someone who deosn't even have a college degree make you feel so down about yourself sometimes. like why does he matter? he doesn't, but im making him matter. but i've decided to just look at the papers & let the proof do the talking. I'AM doing something with my life. and i think going to school AND working full-time can speak for me. like fuck that, dude. i gotta stop. no more letting the ignorant things this asshole says to and about me bother me, im done letting such a 'non' person in my life have such a massive affect on my emotions and how i feel about myself. i know im the shit in my own way, end of story. point blank. period. the only time i question that is when he says his stupid shit.

i feel like an idiot, dude. buuuut, i have to get over this... past this. it's nothingggg.


well, just to update from my last entries... iam much much much muchhh happier now!! :D
God had blessed me with a car & i just started having a more positive outlook on life, & trust me, it helps!


i was gonna be a hostess somewhere else, but decided that fox is where i belong... for now. i know im not the 'type' to be there but i love it there, it makes me happy, & i can't imagine being anywhere else at THIS point in my life, this is neccessary. i've decided to completely trust God from this point on with that situation and know that he's gonna put me where he wants me anyway , so stop worrying. :)


i've also just got done with a FULL semester of school & have a tiny bit over a year left in community college until i can transfer to UH!! and so much more things in my life that iam so happy/excited about!! so all in all: i <3 my life!! (MOST of the time, lol!)


but in conclusion: i will no longer let him hurt my feelings or determine who I am with his ignorance. iam me! a pretty awesome girl ;)