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im ready to leave now... im so ready, so many people have told me that im better than this place & i would never listen. i really loved it at one point & still do sometimes but the bad is starting to outweigh the good. its time for me to put my clerical experience to good use. and leave this stepping stone of a place where the managers can be loveable buuuut they're quacks & their lack of proper management skills leads to many things that can lead to a sometimes negative working atmosphere. PLUS, my schedule is so bad. i get 20 something hours every week, at most like 30. thats not what i was promised & now i feel played. i was promised this twice. plus, im tired of this attention thing...

i get it in small, small doses. & i feel like he's nice to me just because of what i know & what i can do with that knowledge. what an asshole. like he's so... arrogant. & it's almost like he's the pimp of that place. like the emotional pimp. i hate to sound dramatic but its like he plays with my mind & i don't think im the only one. or maybe iam. he probably uses different tactics to get on everyone's good side. i'm just stupid enough to buy into it. im tired of chasing after that special attention/ recognition. when i do get it, it's at his convenience & just to keep a good idea of him in my mind.. to stay on my good side. i've already begun to actually look for another, better job. i must've sent out my resume at least 8 times tonight.

sooo, long story short:

i was friends w/ this girl jennifer (this girls' extremelyyyy dense btw. like im not even trying to make her look bad, she's just one of those ppl you meet that has NO common sense. she's 20, hasn't graduated high school, just had her 2nd kid, & uses NOOO birth control. enough said.) well, her bf (now husband) is friends with my husband. well, her & her husband were sharing his cell phone @ one time. my husband gets a text from his friends phone asking 'whats up?' & my husband (thinking its his friend texting him) replies 'oh whats up, wey?' & he gets a text back saying 'oh, no its not mario, its jennifer.' so at this point my husbands like wtf why is she texting me, so he shows me & im like wtf too! so he's like 'do u need something? ? ? ' & shes like 'oh i was just bored. im home alone w/ the baby. mario's at work.' well after that, my husband told her he didnt feel comfortable with his friends gf texting him & that it was inappropriate. she was like ok.

like REALLY, BITCH?! ur gonna throw out hints that ur home alone to MYYY husband who is also ur boyfriends friend? ARE YOU STUPID, BITCH?! you don't do that shit! & i promise you im waiting for the day i can tell her that to her dumbass face. she can try me if she wants. it takes a lot to get me mean but messing with whats mine is a sureeee way to bring the hood out of me. sooo i hear through a couple of mutual friends that she wants to work where i work... bahahahaaaa!! i wish a bitch would. i hope im there when & if she decides to come get an application bc i will be there with some words of wisdom for her & she just might leave crying or pretty upset. especially since i never officially addressed her about the matter, im anxious (needless to say) to get my time with her. i dont have hands, but i do have a mouth that will make you cry if i really want to. so yeah, lets just hope she doesnt try to work where i work. i dont need anymore problems.

well, untill tomorrow! ")

lets hope tomorrow goes better than today!