womp, womp, womppppp!

ive been off for a while... sowwy!

been doing quite a lot though, likeeee....

1)realizing who my real friends are.
2)took a road trip to visit my fam & friends.

3)did a photoshoot! :D

4)actually waitressed for a couple of days!

5)realized (even more so) how much the Lord has blessed me, even in the simplest of ways :)

6)realized that i honestly don't like my husband as a person.

7)& just overall opening my eyes more & more to the things & people around me, you know...growing pains!

about me realizing who my friends are/ are not: my 'so-called bff' ashley, is just a jackass. like she literally has issues that need some serious counsling & i really don't wanna be close friends with somebody like that. to sum it up she's way too sensitive in the wrong areas, a bit egotistical, & negatively analytical. sucks. bc i thought i had a friend. then my other friend ashley that ive known since 6th grade decided to show her ass for the millionth time when i went home to visit & it made me realize that she is not gonna change anytime soon. she is 21 years old & still being messy to the extreme like we're back in middle school & iam NOT willing to put up with that bc guess what? im getting older & shits getting more real. lifes got enough speed bumps, i dont need any unnecessary ones, you know? mm mm, NOT DOING IT.

well, i met a new friend :) (hopefully, she's not a shiesty fake like 98% of these girls out here claiming to be your 'friend'.) ive always known her through a mutual friend but every since a certain fb exchange between us, i completely wrote her off. but we ended up hanging out ( the mutual friend, her, & i) & she seems real cool, maybe she's changed since then? i know i have, so im not gonna be a hypocrit & say that no one can change. she dabbles in photography & we did a photoshoot, too! :D im excited to get the pics! i think they came out alright to say that im not exactly experienced in modeling or photoshoots, ha. but we seem to all have major fun together, so im hopin that these are the bff's/ posse' ive been looking for since like middle school that most girls SEEM to have...you know, loyal...fun...NOT SHIESTY...considerate as iam... not manipulative... doesnt get mad @ me if they cant step all over me...hmm, we'll see... bc you knowww i'll always have that guard up.

faithfullyyyyy...

my faith is beginning to strengthen <3 & im happy about that! i just recently realized that it doesn't happen overnight & that God CAN hear me... yay!! :))))))))

also, realizing more & more wat i will and will not put up with. im hoping God will bless me with the whatever i need in me to open my mouth when something is up... like really reallyyyy take up for myself bc i can be very non-confrontational (unfortunately for me)

there's a few other things, but i'll leave that for next entry. plus, im working on getting a blogger app on my new phone so i can blog a little easier... niiiight :)))