the diary of a modern day southern belle

that's my new baby & she just looks so good :) fashion will be the death of me someday... financially, at least.

today... ive decided to clear out my head a little by making a list, bc my head is cluttered & im so so soooo tired of the wondering all the time. its like i think in my sleep, if that's evennnn possible. ok...i <3 him but is it really love or comfort? can i get my spark back for him?... i have lots of fun w/ my best friend but is she really that? bc @ the end of the day if you dont do what she wants, she starts acting funny, so THAT i know is NOT a friend... its baggage....i love my job & when i decided to stay there i decided that it would be the job i keep until i grad. college, but thats gonna be in 3 yrs, i'll be 24. a 24 year old hostess, im not sure if thats a good look & i might feel funny, where should i go & when should i man up & get that adult job?...then there's bm... that sold me a fake dream on a drunken night then just... idk but actions speak louder than words, plus he makes me nervous & im speechless at times with him so is that a sign or something? am i supposed to be living in tx or should i be in la with my family? then again, i gotta grow sometime.... i dont have any friends here, to be quite honest & everybody needs friends, i have lots of girls who i talk to here & there but have their own group of friends so if i wanted to go swimming & wanted someone to come with, i dont have anyone except for the so called best friend forementioned which brings me back to the beginning of my circle of questions. i would appreciate prayers for those of you who pray.. bc i desperately need guidance & clarity. please & thank you ")

this is what i did @ work today, its the drink specials board, its our new one that lights up, i think its a black light of some sort :D im pretty much artistically challenged , so for it to come out so neat & pretty made me happy! omg & our back to school bash is tomorrow & i officially have everything! just gotta wake up @ 1 so i can be ready by 330 then head out then get my night @ work started, its gonna be fun :)) see what i just did right there? i said that IT IS gonna be fun. bc i realized that YOU make YOUR OWN FUN & if you're determined to have a good time, so you will! well, im gonna go finish watching this game with him <3 love you, love bugs!!! :)

oh p.s. heres the cakepop pic i promised a special someone :))