- me missing my city.
- & my constant vicodin use.
yep, that's what im going with! because quite honestly, im tired of continuously feeling low and sad about everything & all of my blog posts are pretty much downers :( i'm going to do something about this because i REFUSE to be one of those people that's got an issue yet does nothing towards fixing it or changing it. so here i go, tonight starts day one. i refuse to let this big grey cloud to take over my world! plus i knowwwwww that whatever is going on or not going on in my life right now is GOD'S WILL. and this is all supposed to be happening. every minute of it. so, i just have to look for the good in my life. because all this looking down isn't doing anythingggg good for me.
sooo, 19 days from today i will be 21 years oldddd! YAY! FINALLY! im excited, but not as excited as someone this close to 21 should be due to me being depressed. but im sure the anticipation will build like crazy the closer the date gets.
me & my husband are pretty much still up and down. touch & go. its really weird with us. i love him and i thinkkk he still loves me but sometimes i can't help but wonder if life would just get a lot better for me if i just went back home... it's a pestering thought. i love it here but home tugs at my heart a lot. but again, my husband is here "/ and my school and my steady job. plus the schools over there are just soo unorganized that its ridiculous. and i think that's why God wants me here right now... well one of the reasons He wants me here now, bc the schools are awesome.
I MADE UP A DANCE LAST NIGHT! :D i plan to go to ernas once i have it down and out the song on a cd so she can record me doing it on my camera! i feel like its a pretty badass dance ;) i was thinking about doing it for my husband once i have it perfected but idk i just might keep it for myself. you know, just as proof to myself that i CAN dance sexy :)
ok, well i got homework to do so, im outtttt!
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